Goals for the week...

Okay so today hasn't been particularly successful. In fact I've binged. But that's it now. Tomorrow I'm starting my healthy eating pattern and exercise schedule in order to kickstart this health and happiness thing I'm a-searching for. I'm going to follow the couch-to-5k plan but I'm starting at week four given that I have run alot in the past/do run (very) occassionally, so we'll see how that goes! I think I'll try and do 2 days of yoga as well. I'm thinking of getting the Jilliam Michaels yoga dvd...it's pretty cheap on amazon so not much to loose!

I'm feeling really excited about this. I'm ready to turn my life around. I've got a week and a half of drinking/partying after exams but I'm prepared for that and I'm not going to beat myself up about it. After uni's out is when I'm really going to go hard on myself to kickstart this change. Really, I just have to do this the healthy hard way ONCE and then that's it. I've got the time to do it properly, and I CAN do it. So I've got to really keep that in my mind.

I'm not sure whether to plan out my meals and snacks or just take it as it comes. I'm going to aim for around 1200 calories a day (I'm only 5ft) but I don't want to get obsessive over calories so it'll all be very vague estimates. But this is a LIFESTYLE change so if I do end up feeling like I need more calories, that's okay.

The issue for me seems to be the evenings. I can do all day but then I start craving things in the evening and if I'm on my own then it can turn into a full on binge. I have to find a way to occupy myself in the evening time. I'm going to buy lots of decaf tea and sip it like nobody's business. There could be a lot of toilet trips going on.

So this is my plan for tomorrow:
Breakfast: Oatbran made with water, with chopped apple and cinnamon
A spot of revision
Run: 5 min warm up walk (I didn't do this last time I did it and my muscles were aching)
       Jog 3 mins
       Walk 90 seconds
       Jog 5 mins
       Walk 2.5 mins
       Jog 3 mins
       Walk 90 seconds
       Jog 5 mins
Lunch: Salad beast: black eyed beans, frijimole/cottage cheese, salad, courgettes, balsamic
Clean up, pack etc,
Go home
Snack: Apple and Bag of granola nibbles
Dinner: Spaghetti with sauce, cottage cheese and courgettes
Evening snack: apple with cinnamon

I think I should drink more water too...
Okay....I'm DETERMINED to do this

Beginning

Hey there,

I'm a 20 year old student trying to find my way to health and happiness. I struggled with an eating disorder for a couple of years and never really regained my healthy relationship with food. Instead I binged until I was not only at a healthy weight, but pushing the overweight boundary. This blog is about my quest this summer to lost the excess weight I've gained in a healthy manner, stop bingeing, and find the kind of harmony with my body that I've never really experienced.

I don't expect anyone will actually read this...but I feel like it'll be something to keep me accountable, help me sort out my thoughts, and get over this phase in my life that's affecting how I view things. I have a lovely family, incredible friends and should be enjoying what is a relatively carefree and irresponsible age.

I am determined to pull my self out of this tangle of feelings connected with food that I've found myself in. By the end of this summer (12 weeks) I want to be full of energy, healthy, and happy with the way I look.

Wish me luck!